It’s no secret — I’m not surgically inclined. I generally find people’s insides unpleasant to see or handle.
More disquieting, surgical theatres depersonalise. When a person’s essence is reduced to a view of naked innards, neatly framed by sterile blue drapes, is it hostile to replace a cordial introductory handshake with a firm grip on their viscera? Although operations are consensual and intended to improve life, a thought lingers — who is the person on the operating table?
Even so, to a young intern, being invited to assist in theatre on my surgical rotation was a treat. Surgeons declare clinical convictions by steel blade, inflicting wounds to repair health. Such courage requires formidable confidence and arduous training. The surgeon’s reward is to command a theatre which, highly structured and intentionally austere, affords a protecting veil to facilitate their work.
Vocational chimeras, in each surgeon I perceive an architect, interior designer, builder, plumber and electrician of the human body. Their skill on display is impressive; time warps while dextrous hands renovate anatomy.
One day in the operating theatre, I met an exceptional patient — a healthy young woman, save for one quality. She was brain dead.
Long before we met, her healthy brain had formed a generous exit strategy for its fellow vital organs if the need arose — organ donation.
Twenty hours before we met, her brain had suffered the effects of a catastrophic subarachnoid haemorrhage. A transplant liaison team had been mobilised to support her anguished relatives, who then formed their verdict. Five hours before we met, the woman’s decision to donate her liver, kidneys, heart and lungs had been honoured. Thus an elaborate system was activated.
A liver transplant surgeon from another tertiary hospital arrived to procure the patient’s abdominal organs. Contrary to my fanciful surmise, he caught a taxi and not a helicopter. Unassuming entrance complete, the surgeon enlisted the day’s on-call surgical assistant — my senior resident.
Until then, our morning had been unremarkable. Postoperative patients were stable in the wards, the day’s tasks were already accomplished and the cricket attracted a growing audience around the television in the residents’ quarters.
Fascinated by the rare prospect of organ retrieval, I went to theatre and asked to observe. Enthusiastic and sporting full-length white overalls, the surgeon beamed. “You’ll never see anything like this, please scrub in and assist us.”
Few experiences in life wholly draw you into a situation, distort sensory coordination and tantalise your mind. As I scrubbed up, adrenaline coursed through me, and continued to do so long after the final suture.
Surgery is pre-eminent among medical fields regarding efficiency and outcomes — surgeons definitively thwart disease and injury with a scalpel. In this case, one life’s end would save five other lives.
When I assist in operations on the abdomen, I am usually underwhelmed by its organs. The liver, despite its essential functions, is aesthetically uninteresting and doesn’t even pulsate. Nor do kidneys. Bowels have the visual advantage of spontaneous activity, albeit reminiscent of the seething of primordial annelids. Overall, the abdominal cavity and retroperitoneal space display a menu of visually unexciting offal.
This patient’s abdominal contents briefly inspired a new level of interest as the surgeon established visual and tactile confirmation that they were free of overt disease. Satisfied, he prepared the liver and kidneys, and positioned ligatures behind major vessels.
In the spirit of team enterprise, he gained access to the thorax for the cardiothoracic surgeons. Witnessing my first median sternotomy, I saw the buzzing saw easily split the sternum then wax smeared on raw bone edges to halt bleeding. Thorax, prized open, revealed its jewel.
Her heart on debut to the external world, its beat revealed, fleetingly stopped my own.
Immediately the other viscera were demoted to their previous status. The shifting gleam of theatre lights reflected on her pericardium, as myocardium squeezed then eased, unhurried, beat after diligent beat. It compelled my fingertips to feel it fill, clench, hover and then quiver to reposition. Reluctantly, having no business in touching her heart, I resisted but my fingers yearned. Behind my right shoulder, abdominal preparations continued but faded from focus.
Oblivious to its exposure, resolute, her heart forced blood through passive bodily circuits with each contraction.
Existentially, the heart must coexist — other organs are essential to maintain homoeostasis, yet they are subordinate. Lungs require mechanical ventilation when the brainstem dies or when muscle and nerve function are disrupted. All organs require adequate perfusion. And all these things depend on a functioning heart, which beats without instruction.
The liver transplant surgeon stepped back when the cardiothoracic team arrived so I could get a better view. “I’ve seen a hundred”, he explained, “you should see this”.
Our patient’s tawny lungs, bearing the speckled carbon emblem of city living, were inflated and deflated by the anaesthetists, on request. Inspected and palpated by surgeons, they easily met requirements.
Her heart was scrutinised. Transplant liaison held a phone to the ear of the cardiothoracic surgeon, who confirmed to an interstate counterpart that “it’s a good little heart; definitely suitable”.
Everyone was poised, especially the patient. Cardioplegia was coordinated by the anaesthetic and cardiothoracic teams. Blood was replaced by chilled transplant medium and, inevitably, her heart began to falter. So did mine. Finally, when the great vessel cannulas bled clear, her heart arrested.
Respectful silence descended on the theatre, as redundant monitors were switched off and conversation diminished to essential communication.
Precious organs were transferred, carefully wrapped, to their crushed-ice baths. Clear plastic bags formed an interim sheath for transport, in the darkness of an esky, to distant recipients.
Not technically required that day, I was privileged to attend this woman’s intimate terminal event. Subspecialty surgical, medical and nursing staff converged with a grieving family to honour a dying woman’s wish.
Rescued from death, her organs survived to sustain the lives of other people.
In elegant solitude, her beating heart was a steady reminder that life is tenacious, right to the end. And evidence that sometimes, with breathtaking resolve, life defies mortality.
Note: Clinical details have been altered to protect patient and family privacy. Publication
has been approved by The Alfred Hospital Chief Legal Counsel and the Medical Director of
Organ and Tissue Donation, DonateLife Victoria.